What Does It Mean To Reject Yourself? / by Bryce Hidysmith

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I keep thinking about this quote from an article around when AlphaGo defeated the final human master: 

“AlphaGo has completely subverted the control and judgment of us Go players,” Mr. Gu, the final player to be vanquished by Master, wrote on his Weibo account. “I can’t help but ask, one day many years later, when you find your previous awareness, cognition and choices are all wrong, will you keep going along the wrong path or reject yourself?”

I don't have anything meaning to conclude about this right now, but I think the following question seems worth asking to further specify some of what Gu's getting at:

Is one's identity more related to the narrative time-series of actions than a given individual's internal criticism and interpretation of said time-series of actions?

In other words, if one is to realize as Mr. Gu did that they had acted imperfectly and were bested by an outside actor that was able to show inherent flaws in one's strategic cognitive process, would one identify with the part of the mind that is able to recognize the defeat and take correct action with available information? Would one forgive the self for past failure, through the understanding that it is necessary to invest all energy in future behavior, allowing one the privilege to learn? Or would one identify with the part of the mind that is capable of constructing a narrative that explains away the possibility of doing the right thing by conflating the narrative with one's identity? Such narratives, and by extension such identities, must be inherently simplifications to be comforting and processable by an intelligence, as such an intelligence is attempting to look at itself from the "third person" and is incentivized to be ego syntonic. In such a case, one's decision rests on a counterfactual simulation optimized for submission to the ego, rather than the world as it stands. Such an action seems inherently narcissistic, although not necessarily maladaptive in contexts when confidence is more valuable than knowledge.